Jesus Christ is My Lord and Saviour. I am an ex-gay if you want to know anything else feel free to ask.
Are you willing to give up everything for him?
How about your family? How about your money? How about giving up that brand new car? How about your friends? What about your Job? What about your life? What about your sexuality? What about your Kids? What about your house? What about your freedom? What about your lifelong passion? How about your collection? What about your Tumblr? How about your college education? How about your Boyfriend or Girlfriend? What about your hobby? How about your fetish? Maybe even your career goals!
What are you willing to go through?
What about spending time in prison? How about becoming poor? Maybe being called names! What about being beaten? How about hunger? How about thirst? How about dying? What about being hung from a tree? What about being burned in a ditch? What about your family hating you? How about being hated by strangers? What about being hated by your friends? What about losing your job? What about losing your popularity? What about losing your image? How about sitting in that electric chair? Or taking that lethal injection? Or going to the CROSS!
If you said “No” to any of these I don’t think following Jesus is what you really want. If you said “no” to any of those then are you really a Christian? I would seriously think about that if I were you.
“If any man come to me, and hate not his father, and mother, and wife, and children, and brethren, and sisters, yea, and his own life also, he cannot be my disciple. And whosoever doth not bear his cross, and come after me, cannot be my disciple.” (Luke 14:26-27)
“So you cannot become my disciple without giving up everything you own”(Luke 14:33).
“Then Jesus said to his disciples, ‘If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me’.”(Matt. 16:24) See also (Luke 9:23, Mark 8:24)
It’s pretty plain to see that Christ’s wants all of you not just a part of you! But it’s not all gloom and doom. It’s not all sacrifice there is something amazing that comes in response to our willingness to give up! A reward!
For the Son of Man is going to come in his Father’s glory with his angels, and then he will reward each person according to what he has done” (Matt. 16:27)
“I assure you that when the world is made new and the Son of Man sits upon his glorious throne, you who have been my followers will also sit on twelve thrones, judging the twelve tribes of Israel. And everyone who has given up houses or brothers or sisters or father or mother or children or property, for my sake, will receive a hundred times as much in return and will inherit eternal life. But many who are the greatest now will be least important then, and those who seem least important now will be the greatest then.” (Matt. 19:28-30) see also (Mark 10:29-31)
So follow Christ, but, remember there is a cost but the reward is far greater than anything you would have to give up!
You choose Death
When you bow to the pictures in lust to satisfy your groin!
You choose Death
When you put yourself inside another instead of your wife!
You choose death
When you put foreskin to labia before marriage!
You choose death
When you lie down with man and you are a man!
You choose death
When you bottom or top master enslaved effeminate depraved!
You choose death
When you think you love him and give up your virginity outside the marriage bed!
You choose death
For a quick and fleeting orgasm made by tongue spoken on genital!
You choose death
When you watch the images of fornication just to set the mood, even in marriage a lustful heart commits adultery!
You choose death
When you touch her, emotional connection you say at first, but, woman is not made for woman!
You choose death
When your eyes wander far from husband to look upon chiseled muscle, and, lust burns in your heart.
You choose death
With flesh that digs its own grave!
You choose death
When you are outside the boundaries that God put forth!
Sex is meant to be beautiful or at least that’s how it was intended. In the beginning he made her for him and him for her; to join together in beautiful orgasmic splendor. Yet, you choose fleeting moments of passion ending in shame. You choose Heart breaking tragedies from long term marriage-less sex! You choose burning warts and blisters from regretted encounters. You choose erectile dysfunction and inability to get wet from pornographic images projected on a screen. You choose dissociation for minutes, turned to hours, turned to days, turned to years, and only for a picture! You choose alcoholic obsessions caused by to many penetrations that led to self-deprecation! For each action there is always a reaction don’t you know you cause your own demise!
Man cannot enter man or be entered by man without the consequence of death! Woman cannot open woman or be opened to woman without the consequence of death. You cannot have sex outside the marriage bed without consequence of death! One woman one man under vows permitted by God this is the only beautiful way to have sex!
So keep on adding to your sentence f that is what you want. Death will always be there its your final cost! You think it’s just another notch on my bed a conquest made for flesh. Remember when you exchange DEATH for SEX it still somehow never adds up!
I washed my skin in preparation
Readied my face with razor of shame
Laid thick the makeup to cover up the man
When it was done I wasn’t the same
Foolishly they all say, you were born …. “born this way”
one for pride; pride for all. Followed shortly by the fall.
Primed my eyes to white on lies
followed up with the powdered brush
Contoured and reshaped all I could
Quieted masculinity with a hush
Manliness now swept from my face; all my maleness gone no trace
Gender to be genderless; against His loving tenderness
Painted my eyes the color of woman
but black was a constant; like my heart
Wig on tight; female the guise
Lips blood red to better play the part
Glued on lashes in spite of His lashes
Breast drawn Cheeks rouged; Image of God the likeness I abused
Corset choking out reality
slipped in hips to curve their desire
lip synced for Life
Enslaved to death reserved hell’s fire
Audience drunken on constant sips; of liquor sang from my lips
Chained by medical decision; His word cut with surgical precision
I was royally meant, but, prodigal son spent.
Danced on stage with death for fame. Beauty the facade illusion the game.
Dressed to kill and kill I did
Noose of silk the scarf of my head
seduced many to betray their hearts
in fear of the light of life, I was dark and dead
Pretty was the picture; a promise still in scripture
Gone the old the new has come; A new creation saved by the son
He washed from my brow the drawn on expression
Wiped from my eyes the shadow of vain obsession
dabbed from my lips the color spoken in anger
tore away the mask to reveal the faceless stranger
Gasping from the strings corseting my flesh he gave me His breath
His love was more than an ocean I drowned in the depth
in grave I gave up my flesh but the ghost of past haunted
but God said “you are more than enough. Your heart is all wanted”
So no more playing dress up I realize what I am, Pretended to be a wolf but really I was a lamb
I heard the shepherd’s voice call out
I quickly shed the heels and dress
My face no longer painted
exposing all my regrets
Shaking and sobbing with fear and shame
Naked before the king clothed in all my sin
Life and death were vying for me
But Jesus said “don’t you know I always win”
Stop it. Right now! Ex-gay hurts people and ruins families because it’s just not possible for everyone
If it is possible for me how is it not possible? Anything is possible with God! How does my being ex-gay hurt anyone when I am only denying my selfish ways just as Christ commanded us to? ”Then Jesus said to his disciples, “If any of you wants to be my follower, you must turn from your selfish ways, take up your cross, and follow me.” (Matt. 16:24, NLT)
Being gay was partly responsible in why I distanced myself from my family. I didn’t want anything to do with them. However, after becoming Christian and Ex-gay I have a new found Love and respect for my family. Many of the Gays I knew wanted nothing to do with their families. Many of them were very “self-sufficient” that is to say most of them had the attitude of “I don’t need anyone else”. I also know some gays who are close to their families, My Ex for example, is very close to his parents and his family was supportive of both of us even treating me as their own son. Both Conditions can apply to ex-gays they too are differing and shouldn’t be stereotyped. What really causes damage and ruins families is an uncaring, unforgiving, unloving, selfish heart, not, someone’s sexuality or lack thereof.
The Bible is quite clear that homosexuality is a sin (Leviticus 18:22 (NLT), 1 Timothy 1:10 (NLT), Leviticus 20:13 (NLT), 1 Corinthians 6:9 (NLT), and Romans 1:24-27(NLT)) I hope that you take these verse into consideration. God Bless!
My Love to You in Christ Jesus,
Link to An article about the harmful psychological effects of homosexuality.
He died for you on that cross. He thought of you and Said “this is for you”. You are forgiven so don’t let the guilt wear you down. Then you might believe that you cant be fixed; that you aren’t being fixed, and, then you might go back to the dirt you were in and settle for nothing when he offers you everything. Some days, I must admit, I let the guilt dive in and it tells me that I am ugly, No it proves that i was ugly, but you see I was ugly but Jesus laid down his life and said ” Roman, you are forgiven, cleansed by blood. Don’t you know you are a new creation?” “Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new.” (2Cor. 5:17) No longer are you and I those ugly things but new creations with new lives to live for him. Live for him with all His might walk with him for all your life and you will see the beauty he gave you when he forgave you!
I support Chick-Fil-A more Specifically Cathy and his faith! Does that mean that those of us who support him hate those who Identify as gay? NO, definitely not! But you see in our support as I have seen directly and have gone through myself at one point its become hazy and misconstrued on both sides! Are all of us who are in support of Biblical Marriage hateful? Is our support really showing God’s Love?
Firstly, I have no doubt that their are some who do hate gay people and to them Jesus has said “Whosoever hateth his brother is a murderer: and ye know that no murderer hath eternal life abiding in him”-1 John 3:15. So those of you acting out of hate Check your hearts and humble yourselves! Did Christ not love you even in darkness? so you should do the same!
Secondly, Those of us who are true Christian I can without a doubt say that we love everyone just as Christ loves. I personally see that my support has hurt some people and for that I am truly sorry! So I ask some of you has your support of this company caused a roadblock with those who are gay if so be the first to show love! Our message of Love from Christ should be shown in our Life. We should shine like the heavens! So Go out and those who are hurt by this show them Love!
Thirdly, Those who are gay and are hurt by our belief I understand where you are I know what its like to feel hated; The truth is though you are loved. I love you and More Importantly GOD loves you. I might disagree with you but that doesn’t mean I hate you! I argue alot with my little brother, but, I could never hate him. I know your pain and I just want to say Jesus is the way the truth and the Life. By him you are cleansed!
Lastly, I just want to take this time to ask God to bless all those who read this and I pray that the core message be shown to those who have yet to see who Christ is. In everything we do, Lord, we are to do it in Love. I pray that we be humbled as your people and shown to walk in love! Blessed be your name King, O’holy, Majesty!
I feel it deep in my Bones! I see it in the unforeseeable! Traps laid, snares for the capture! Persecution is soon to consume! Even the “believers” will cast their stones! Am I afraid? Never, I have a king greater than mountains! Never, I have a savior Gentle like a Lamb and Fierce like a Lion! They spit upon my name and call it a disaster! Ready to destroy even in words! They have forsaken good and called it evil, and now admire evil and call it Good! More will ensue and to death will be brothers and sisters! Do we fear? Never, Our Lord is fearsome! Never, Our Father is Stronger! You, Loving Father, oh Gracious King, have called to us and we have heard we will stand to the end and persevere in your name, oh Lord Jesus, sweetest Savior.
As i look at the people and i see their faces, their names, they trigger a guttural response, a deep moan within my soul. All the souls within this earth, I pray they be blessed! My heart so broken for a world so broken, diseased, and riddled. complexly defiled! You, oh lord, in all Your Majesty cant be okay with this! You love them so i feel it in my heart, and I know it in my soul! I know your spirit minister to us that they heed your instruction! I pray just the same, my heart it is broken! I love them all even when they hate me! Christ you alone died for their redemption. I pray they recognize you! That their hearts be softened! That they see you and fall in Love with you! You are God and cant be denied and I pray they do not deny you that we all be humbled to you lord! My eyes so mortal cant see the way you see, But, I see you love them and its something so deep I could never fathom!
The following can be read further HERE:
It may seem strange and even foolish that I should even ask such questions. Aren’t the Scriptures clear on this subject? Apparently not, if you listen to the many voices now embracing this life style. There are scholars and theologians who adamantly try to defend their homosexual life style based on the Scriptures.
While some do not believe that homosexual sex is even mentioned or described in Scripture, others freely admit that it is mentioned and was a capital crime under Moses, and strongly condemned by the Apostle Paul as being worthy of death. But among the latter it is argued that neither of these condemnations in the Old or the New Testaments applies to homosexual Believers in Christ. That is a twist we will examine carefully, as most have probably never heard of such a defense.
The purpose of this paper is not to single out or come down upon homosexuals. I have never written a paper entitled: “Is Stealing a Sin for New Testament Believers?” or, “Is Bearing False Witness a Sin?” or, “Is Murder a Sin?” So why “homosexuality? Because more and more, the media, entertainment, the government, the Church, the general population of America and much of the world, no longer believes it is a sin to be discriminated against, whereas even the basest of nations have laws against stealing, false witness, and murder.
So, my purpose here is not to judge, but to specifically establish whether homosexuality is a sin or not a sin for Believers in Christ under the New Covenant.
If it is not a sin, and these practices are normal and virtuous, then we should not be speaking or discriminating against them. But if it is a sin, then we should certainly speak out against it just as we should against adultery, idolatry, lying, stealing, etc. Let’s try and look at the Scriptural facts with unbiased, open minds. If we are interested in obedience to Jesus Christ then we should be eager to know the truth one way or the other.
Most homosexuals do not argue with Lev. 20:13:
“If a man also lie with mankind, as he lies with a woman, both of them have committed an abomination: they shall surely be put to death; their blood shall be upon them.”
They concede that this verse is speaking of homosexuality-sex between members of the same gender. Their argument is that it no longer applies to them as Believers in Christ under the New Covenant, stating that they are no longer under the law of Moses.
It is beyond the scope of this paper to go into what is meant by no longer being “under the law.” But I will give just a few comments concerning whether Lev. 20:13 is still binding on Christian Believers.
A SILLY ARGUMENT
Over the years I have received some bizarre reasons from the gay community regarding why they don’t think homosexuality is a sin. Here is an example I received this week from a self-professed lesbian:
“Also, don’t you find it interesting that when Jesus walked the earth, he never once brought up the subject? If it was such a sin, it would be one of the Ten Commandments, don’t you think?”
No, I don’t think so at all. Lev. 20:13 does not need to be one of the Ten Commandments before it has any jurisdiction over Christian Believers.
Jesus did not address child-molestation either; neither is it one of the Ten Commandments. Neither did Jesus address drug abuse, nor pornography, smoking, spousal abuse, or torture. Does this fact therefore condone such sins and atrocities? Are we to assume therefore that none of these are wrong or sinful? I hope we are not foolish enough to believe that if something is not mentioned in the Bible, then it shouldn’t be considered a sin.
Listen: One of the Ten Commandments was against “stealing.” But stealing did not carry the death sentence. Yet witchcraft (not one of the Ten Commandments) did carry the death sentence(Lev. 20:27). Having sexual intercourse with an animal carried the death sentence for both men and women (Lev. 20:15-16).
Who among us would deign to suggest to their children that having sex with farm yard animals is now okay since it is not condemned in the New Testament by Jesus, neither is one of the Ten Commandments? When all else fails, try a little common sense and basic morality.
WHAT IS HOMOSEXUALITY?
The actual words “homosexual” and “lesbian” are not found in the Scriptures. The word “homosexual” is reported to be a German invention to euphemize and take the place of the distasteful word “sodomite.” Although the word “sodomy” as used today may not even have a direct connection with the sexual sins of historical Sodom.
While the Scriptures do not speak to us in crude street language, describing the actual mechanics of homosexual acts, nonetheless, the practice of same sex lust assuredly is mentioned and condemned in Scripture as a sin that needs to be repented of just as idolatry, adultery, stealing, murder, and all sins.
The word homosexual is applied to both men and women whose sexual preference is with one of the same gender. Male homosexuals are generally called “gay” or “gay men,” while female homosexuals are generally called “gay women” or “lesbians.”
Most gay men will acknowledge that male homosexuality is mentioned in Scripture. What may be alarming to many of my readers is that while they concede that it is mentioned and talked about, they deny that it is categorically a sin. On the other hand, many argue that gay women or lesbianism are not mentioned in Scripture at all. I will briefly comment on the one main Old Testament Scripture forbidding homosexuality. Below is an excerpt from the gaychurch.org web site regarding Lev. 18:22 & 20:13.
Professor Soards tells us:
“Old Testament experts view the regulations of Leviticus as standards of holiness, directives for the formation of community life, aimed at establishing and maintaining a people’s identity in relation to God.”This is because God was so determined that His people who were being formed into a new nation would not adopt the practices of the Baal worshipers in Canaan, and same-gender sex was part of Baal worship…
Even if we consider that morality was a factor in this rule, it is part of the Code, and when the Code became obsolete, as it is under Christ, that rule, as part of the Code, became obsolete. These verses in Leviticus have nothing to say to us today beyond the eternal principle of the need for purity in the worship of God. If the immorality expressed in them happens to be a principle for all time, then it will be found elsewhere in the Bible. (For heterosexuals it is found in Roman 1 which clearly condemns same-gender sex by heterosexuals. There is nothing in the Bible to support any finding about homosexuals.)” By Bruce Lowe Appendix B: Bible Passages on Same-Gender Sex (Underline emphasis is mine)
Just a couple of comments: Clearly it is admitted that same gender sex was condemned under Moses (being punishable by death), and that it was a practice of “Baal worship.” And so it suggested that homosexuality was not inherently wrong, but rather it was wrong because it was practiced in the worship of Baal.
Apparently, had not the pagans used homosexuality in their worship of Baal, God would have allowed it. I think not.
It is then suggested that since homosexuality was a part of the things forbidden under the law of Moses (which they call “the Code”), but Christian Believers are not under the Code, but under Christ, therefore, “the Code became obsolete.”
Well I have already commented on the absurdity of this with regarding things like bestiality, which I seriously doubt they would condone under this same “became obsolete” argument.
So what is the argument for not following the admonition of Paul regarding same gender sex in Rom. 1:26-27? Well you just read it:
(For heterosexuals it is found in Romans 1 which clearly condemns same-gender sex by heterosexuals. There is nothing in the Bible to support any finding about homosexuals.)”
Now I must admit that statement overwhelms me. Since it cannot be denied that Paul is speaking of same gender sex in Rom. 1:26-27, what are they to do? Well, they dogmatically state that Paul is not condemning homosexuality sex between homosexuals, but rather they state that Paul is CONDEMNING HOMOSEXUAL SEX BETWEEN HETEROSEXUALS! Is that not akin to suggesting that it is not wrong for alcoholics to get drunk, but rather it is wrong for NON-ALCOHOLICS to get drunk?
We will now see whether the Scriptures substantiate the above assertion that:
“There is nothing in the Bible to support any finding about homosexuals.”
We will first look at three sexual perversions closely allied with homosexuality.
THREE CATEGORIES OF PERVERTED SEX
“Know ye not that the unrighteous shall not inherit the kingdom of God? Be not deceived: neither fornicators [Gk: paramours], nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor effeminate [Gk: catamites], nor abusers of themselves with mankind [Gk: sodomites] nor thieves, nor covetous, nor drunkards, nor revilers, nor extortioners, shall inherit the kingdom of God” (I Cor. 6:9-10).
What are paramours, catamites, and sodomites?
paramours (King James, ‘fornicators’)-Strong’s #4205 pornos “to sell, a male prostitute (as venal), a debauchee (libertine): fornicator, whoremonger.”
prostitute: “one who solicits and accepts payment for sex” (American Heritage College Dictionary).
venal: “capable of betraying honor, duty, or scruples for a price, corruptible” (AHCD).
debauchee/debauchery: “to corrupt morally, to lead away from excellence or virtue, indulge in dissipation [lacking moral restraint, indulgence in sensual pleasure], orgies [unrestrained sexual activities],”
libertine: “one without moral restraint” (AHCD)
catamites (King James, ‘effeminate’)-Strong’s #3120 malakos “soft, fine clothing, a catamite, effeminate.”
catamite: “a boy who has a sexual relationship with a man” (AHCD).
effeminate: “having characteristics more often associated with women than a man” (AHCD).
sodomites (King James, ‘abusers of themselves with mankind’-Strong’s #733 arsenokoites “a sodomite, defile self with mankind.”
The elements of the Greek word arsenokoites are “male-lier”-A male who lies with a male. “Male bed partners”—Wycliffe Bible Dictionary……………………………………………….
I have some amazing friends. I am so glad there are people out there that are just so eager to help and just quick to want to help. Even if its just a quick how are you or a quick phone call. Thank you, God, Please bless these amazing people when i was feeling crazy you sent them to remind me. I have since then been built back up. Among many other things there was one straw that broke the camels back. You see There was this person who I loved dearly and this person reacted to me in ways that made me realize that we are not on the same page. Mind you, I am not talking romantic love. I am in no shape to Love anyone in that manner not yet at least. It kinda made me think about how God is proving time and time again he loves me and I am not reacting in kind. I am like “yeah his love is always there I don’t have to worry about it” but how can his love be there when i am not trying to draw near to him. How can I see that Love when I surround myself in things that act like a veil covering my eyes. I am a sinner. I am chief among sinners. I am not a man but a worm. How wonderful is it that even the King should stop to say ” Hey you, yeah you, you are wonderfully and fearfully made”. Reminding me that even in the struggles we go through He is so much greater . I can not turn from you Lord even though sometimes I feel like I don’t deserve to be in your presence. You have called me to be your servant and i willing bondage myself to you as my Master. You love me even though a lot of the time i am dirty. Like a worm I tred through dirt never coming clean. When you respond in Love lord i want to always respond in kind. Dont let me make excuses humble me so that I know you are lord and I, your servant.
Just because you feel something doesn’t mean you are to be that way. Christ said it best “For from the heart come evil thoughts, murder, adultery, all sexual immorality, theft, lying, and slander.” We are to avoid all these things.” You hear the world say “follow your heart” but your heart is a liar and your thoughts not always knowing. Instead Follow Christ and lean on God who is all knowing and ever truthful.
I would also like to point out that what you are going through is “natural” to humanity. ( No temptation has overtaken you except such as is common to man; but God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptation will also make the way of escape, that you may be able to bear it.) 1 Corinthians 10:13. I can guarantee you that within your community and even maybe your own parents have dealt with thoughts like this. More and more people are coming out of the woodwork that live Godly lives, who have dealt with thoughts of homosexuality and have been restored. I say this to reassure you that although you have these thoughts bombard you there are many who have overcome this through our most amazing Savior. Homosexuality although it seems to affect only certain people: I can certainly tell you that it is presented to all individuals at one point. Just like lying I have not yet met one person that was not tempted to lie, likewise all sin is presented to human kind as a temptation some of us are easier attracted to things than other people. We must not view straight as the opposite of these sins but rather Holiness is the opposite of all sin.
I heard once on a radio station either KLOVE or AFR and I am paraphrasing but this is the best advice I have ever heard when it comes to temptation. Think about what God wants to show us because when we are being tempted it is our enemies trying to distract us from something glorious God wants to share with us. When this happens we must drop to our knees in prayer, lift our hands in praise, read his word or whatever have to in order to Lift up our King as King and hear out the truth.
I have been praying for you and I hope you receive this message and whoever else happens on this I hope that Gods truth be shown to you. May The Eternal king bless you!
My love to you in Christ Jesus,