Forgiven

From the very depths of my heart, in complete honesty, before all this is done I hope to have done something kind for you. I hope that, God Forbid, if you are on your death bed that I can be the one to donate the life saving organ, or if not maybe some flowers. If you are on the side of the road with your car broke down then perhaps I could give you a ride, or help push it to the shoulder. If You’re short a couple dollars at the check out lane maybe I could give you the money. I know you think I am disgusting, but, I…. I think you are beautiful and worth it. I know you can’t stand the things I say or do but I….. I very much Love you. Actually, I think about you and I pray that you are well and blessed. I pray when I hear you are having trouble and I pray when I am reminded of you. I know its easy to get mad and say “forget you”, but, I can’t it goes against my very beliefs and nature. I know one day you will see I never hated you or even meant to hurt you. Through all of this even when you killed me, in your heart, I was still breathing. In those feeble breaths I  prayed for you wishing you nothing but the best. In death, I even loved you not unlike my Savior. I know for you it seems I have become someone else, in some ways it’s never been more true, but, I can tell you I have never been more myself. I never meant to spark your hatred, even in your short knowledge of me you know this to be true. I guess it comes down to I know that you hate me and I don’t know that I could do anything to ever change that, and despite that very fact, I love you and I know you could never….. ever….. change that. 

My Love to You ALWAYS in Christ Jesus,
Roman Marquez