Jesus Christ is My Lord and Saviour. I am an ex-gay if you want to know anything else feel free to ask.
Brother, you said yourself you are gay which means you have sexual desires for the same sex, but you do not act on these desires. Having gay desires says that you have thoughts of being with other men in ungodly ways or else they wouldn’t be “gay” thoughts/inclinations/desires. If this is not what you mean by gay then what do you mean? I have not said anything against your celibacy, I also am celibate, and someone who can control their sexual desires is strong willed. I am not saying for you walk the same way I do but as Jesus did as that is the only way
I don’t say this to discourage but encourage you to let go of the things that hold you back brother. We can’t continue to entertain thoughts that could very well become action. We all know that thought leads to action, action to habit and so on. Break the cycle before it has a chance in becoming a habit you can’t quit. I am not telling you that celibacy is wrong or that you have to be with a woman. Rather I am telling you have to deny all your desires and pick up your cross daily just as Christ says to you. Why else do you think Christ says, “If anyone comes to Me and does not hate his father and mother, wife and children, brothers and sisters, yes, and his own life also, he cannot be My disciple. And whoever does not bear his cross and come after Me cannot be My disciple”?
God created you but iniquity has separated us from our real purpose, you are not born that way, God made you for better and I don’t mean a straight life I mean a life made for his glory. The copy and paste, I do that for the benefit of those who might come across the post to further share the word.
My love to you in Christ Jesus,